You didn't rely on your new guy for happiness, right? I mean, I'm sure you're happy because you're with him, which is awesome, but how did you start getting happy before you got with him? I want to say that I feel like I'm trying to be happy, but I don't think I am. Being sad and angry and negative seems to be what I know, like a comfort zone, and I'm not sure how to shake it. Any advice?
Honestly I started my apprenticeship to keep my mind busy. I changed my mind set. I stopped telling myself I needed him or anyone to be happy and I woke up one morning and I felt like a weight was lifted off my chest. I still work with my ex so seeing how he is still temperamental and has made zero changes helps a lot. It was a toxic relationship and I just remind myself that he brought out the worst in me. It hurts but you have to hurt in order to be happy again.