I feel pretty good after today. I know all the piercings and the gauge size and jewelry. I know all the tools needed for what piercing and how to set up the tray. Maybe poking people will help me forget you. Or get over you. Being alone may be how I want to stay.
“The theory of quantum electrodynamics describes nature as absurd from the point of view of common sense. And it agrees fully with experiment. So I hope you can accept nature as she is — absurd.”—Richard Feynman: Nobel laureate physicist (via stxxz)
i am getting lost in daydreams. sometimes i feel like my brain is too weak and one day my concept of reality will break and i will collapse into my own mind and everything i know and everything i see and believe will be controlled by the one person who hates me most and i’m so fucking scared.