February 2011
I have never felt this way in my life.
I’ve never felt so happy to belong to someone.
I could just roll around on the ground and giggle for hours.’
THAT is how happy i am.
when you're too lazy to actually walk down the...
-lostandwandering:
i just fucking died.
January 2011
Finally.
I can finally say i am content with my life. Even though i have a bunch of family drama, school is going good, and i have good friends, and a pretty rad guy.
All i need to do is get a job and pay off my ticket ( which i plan to do tomorrow) and everything will be perfect, or pretty damn close.
It was nice to spend time with someone, and cuddle, and kiss. I’ve forgotten how nice it is. :}
Trenton Lyles.
Is the most amazing bestfriend anyone can have. Even though he is far away, he never fails to make me happy and make me smile when i need it. I love him to death, and i am truly thankful that he has found his way into my life, and i will not allow him to find his way out, ever. I need him in my life, i love him to death. He is one of the few people i can call a TRUE friend, and i will always be...
What do you see,
See in her,
That you don’t in me?
Waited so long.
I’m not surprised,
It was all wrong.
Darkness, creeping in,
Like a burglar of my dreams.
Terror, seeping in,
As i’m breaking at the seams.
Can’t fight these demons,
Hazardous to my health.
You’ve given me many reasons,
To believe love is better than wealth.
Though refusing to show me,
What love can mean.
I just can’t seem to see,
Past this tearful stream.
I need freedom,
Never felt so caged.
Built my walls back up,
Never again will they be broken down.
Breaking free of your hold.
You can have her,
She can’t be me.
Singing.
There is nothing on this earth that i am more passionate about that singing. ( and that will NEVER change.) I want a career in singing, and i need to find a way to make that happen. I can’t see myself doing anything but singing. Singing is my life, it makes me who i am.
My dreams, you turn to night terrors,
Though i am numb to all the pain.
Body writhing in tremors,
Your words sound all the same.
Bleeding ears, and broken souls,
My pain, no-one knows.
Theres things only blind can see.
They sense the trouble brewing.
Walls crumbling down on me.
Starting to lose all feeling.
Imagine if someone came up to you in the street...
I’d be like:
and then:
Death.
I think 12, is a little young, for a girl to have her father ripped away. I still cant comprehend that your gone. Every day is worse, and my heart breaks more and more everyday to realize, you’r not here. You’r not here watching me grow, watching me learn , watching me become a woman. I constantly wonder, if you’d be proud.
The pain of losing you will never go away, it may hide...
Change.
I need some serious change in my attitude.
I am so negative about everything.
Theres never a time when i feel like something will actually work out.
Speak sweetly, this tired heart has been bruised.
The past has left me a bitter taste for love.
Tired of being broken and used.
I want to fit to you, like a glove.
I miss the chills, I miss the thrills,
Of a lovers hand.
Alone for so long, I’ve forgotten the feeling.
Time can only tell,
If my heart will do the healing.
I’ll bow for you, follow your every command,
Just give me the chills, Show me those thrills.
Lovers are beggers,
Begging for pain and disappointment.
You
You, Polluting my thoughts,
You, Haunting my dreams,
You, Poisoning my love,
You, Stealing my soul,
You, Breaking my heart,
You, I Love You.
This road is long,
But with me dear, it is worth every step.
My heart for you i have kept.
Shaking hands, Trembling bones.
Empty promises, full of lies.
All these things noone knows.
Not hearing all the desperate cries.
Invisible
Invisible, Thats all i am,
All I ever will be.
Something dark grasping my hand,
Don’t save me from this darkened sea,
I cannot bare to breath.
No more tricks up my sleeve.
Invisible, All of my pain I’ve kept.
Losing my mind,
Is this because i havnt slept?
Life is no longer kind.
Invisble, I’ll always be.
Well, I am no longer me.
It’s time to leave,
I’ll...
I will carry you near or far,
I will take you in my arms.
Love you for everything you are,
Show you how good life is.
“If you’re gonna be two-faced at least make one of them pretty”
– Marilyn Monroe
Pain seeping in like rain,
With everything to lose and nothing to gain,
You swallow hard and hope to die.
Your useless ways wont make these eyes cry.
Desperation swallows us all.
Love does not exist.
Noone will hear you call.
I cannot resist
Your lustful ways.
My thoughts, you have poisoned.
We are too far,
Far from the point of returning.
You always said you would stay.
Left with no other choice,
Your slowly disappearing
Ignoring all sounds of my screaming voice,
Begging you to stay.
